I’m writing this post out of… nothing. Feeling like I have nothing. But I don’t mean that in some horrid way; I have plenty of good, valuable things in my life. I don’t want more of most things, and am very grateful for what I do have. There comes to be a certain opportunity to sit back and think ‘what do I want for myself and for my life’. You’ve got the resources and the opportunity… now what?
For the majority of my life, a pathway was rather clear. Go to college. Apply for internships. Do stuff with friends. Run more often. Go back to school. Learn a skill. New hobby X. Pursue project Y. Pursue crazy project Z. Bond with parents. Figure out my retirement dream. There is clearly never a chance to be bored. Rather, the room for choice is there, the room to create… whatever. Within work, choices exist too; within a set topical area, many are allowed to develop their career in a way they desire (certain industries are more amenable to this than others).
It’s amazing how full and empty are so very closely tied to one another. Sometimes choice is overwhelming. Boundaries are a comfort. I in no way mean to sound ungrateful for choice and opportunity, but rather that they can also be daunting.
I’m curious how people really figure out what utterly fills their nothing. And not like “how do you find meaning in life”, but how did you or do you come about your passions? And figure out which passions were the ones to really focus on and DO?
I’ve had passions in the past, but have run out of steam lately. Too much start/ not finish, that I hesitate to start things. But the excitement still exists, and opportunity abounds. I realize I need to start making something from the nothing with something before there’s some regret! Again with the empty/ full thing being the same, because my life is on the outside full as can be… but there’s no one thing, so more so there is seemingly nothing.
Comically, what prompted me actually writing the post (I’ve been thinking about the concepts all week) was a Facebook quiz on “What Wizard of Oz character are you?” There was a question about what one does in their spare time, or something like that. One option was ‘Daydream’… and I didn’t pick it!!! Years ago, I daydreamed in real belief of making those dreams a reality. Not so much anymore. I still have a nice, social, shiny life, no sob story here… but what about… not more, but something else.
So how did you find your something?